I am getting old.  I am old.  I feel old.

     Those were thoughts that ran through my head all day long.   Several reasons for it. 

     One.  A one-hour commute to Cubao from Makati (3 rides...jeep, mrt and jeep) and another hour back (2 rides...jeep and bus)  had drained me when it didn't used to before.

     Two.    The 4-hour exams i went through today sapped what energy I had left from the commute. (wonder if it had anything to do with the fact that I skipped lunch?)

     Third.  The person who interviewed me didn't go exclaiming "Oh, you don't look 28!" or "Really? You're 28??" (maybe it was because she was about my age or younger?)

     Fourth.  After an hour's rest at home, I was too tired to do anything more than meet up with some friends for coffee. I couldn't even muster up enough energy to hang out with them for a couple of drinks afterwards.  (but obvioulsy i'm not that tired since i'm online now eh? )

     Fifth.  These same friends I went out to coffee with, well...I feel like we're not on the same page anymore.  I mean, true they're younger than me but somehow we've always been able to talk about stuff.  So either i was really too tired tonight or things are different, I can't be too sure. 

     Sxith.  I met up with a friend from Cebu who was in town with her British hubby the other night.  My friends and I met up for dinner and then her hubby came by later after his meeting.  He was telling me how surprised he was not to find his wife piss-assed drunk because he'd thought that after not seeing each other for 5 years, we'd have lots to talk about and would probably have taken in a couple of bottles like we used to.  We got home well past 1 AM and until now I still feel like I haven't caught up with my sleep much.  Woowee, look at the party girl go...

     Like I said, things are different these days.  Each of us are moving on with our own lives...separate lives.  It's sad really.  Getting married, moving to another city or country, hooking up with a new girlfriend/boyfriend or even landing a new job.  Each scenario is happening to almost all my friends these days that we no longer get to talk or hang out as often as we used to.  And then there's me.  Engrossed in the business.  Wrapped up in looking for the perfect furniture.  Searching for a really good job.   And lately, content with my own company.  Unsociable me.