

My sister makes me sooo mad!
We had our second fight in just a week. I'm trying to make allowances that she's cranky and probably suffering from cabin fever for being cooped up at home for a week, dealing with the contractors. But fuck it, I've got my own problems too.
So anyway, there we were having breakfast earlier and we started talking about the renovations being done in the kitchen. I told her that the kitchen seems a bit too small after all the cabs were installed and she said get used to it. And then she starts saying things like you wanted the pantry cabinet...I know you, you'll end up getting cranky if things don't go your way...blah and blah. I got a bit irked by then and told her that I know I'd adjust to the changes later on. She suddenly shot back a reply about how I got mad when she moved my stuff last Sunday before renovations started and that I had taken it out on her. I told her that it wasn't that, it was more of the way she talked to me. All-knowing and superior, like she was always right and I was wrong and pretty stupid. And she goes..."I am right; I always am. When have you ever proven me wrong? All of you in the family can't even make a decision without me."
Of all the nerve. For years now, she'd always pushed it to our face how she was taking on half the responsibility of running the family business when my mom asked her a few years back. It's true her taking on the biz had let off pressure on me; she knows it and we know it. I am grateful for that sacrifice she made but in the recent years I've began to see that it was more than that. Everytime she gets mad at us, she always threatens to leave the family business and do what she wants to do and although I really don't give a shit what she does with her life, I care about the fact that she'd hurt my parents.
I hate the way she talks down to us, like she's better than the rest of us. When we do decide on something on our own, she'd say something that'd undermine our decisions or make us feel like we did the wrong thing. And when we do ask for her opinion, she'd complain that we couldn't even make a decision without her. Fuck her. Lately I'm beginning to see that I don't even like my sister. I hate that feeling. I've tried talking to my mom about this but she doesn't want to say anything because she wants to appease my sister.